I miss you.
It’s been almost 2 years .. how my mindset have changed, and despite the people I’ve encountered,
why can’t I get over you…
I am holding onto the nothing we have left.
You’ve given me a high standard to set for those who had came and will come after you. I forgot what it feels like to have “butterflies in my stomach”. I don’t know if I push people away naturally or because deep down I’m still hoping we’d end up together again, so I am reserving my feelings for you.
For the past months, I’ve been splitting my thoughts between work and school which been making me feel emotionless(besides stress of course). It felt great yet sad, to cry while I reminise and look through ”our book”.
You were the source of my happiness and in a way.. my salvation. You’ve made me a better person. I like who I am now[for the most part] and I wish you could see that first-hand…
when your ex texts you out of no where and give you a bit of hope but then disappoints..
I need to get my shit together.